“I loved it and I always wanted to escape.”
“You don’t have to control your thoughts; you just have to stop letting them control you.”
“I compare myself with my former self, not with others. Not only that, I tend to compare my current self with the best I have been, which is when I have been midly manic. When I am my present “normal” self, I am far removed from when I have been my liveliest, most productive, most intense, most outgoing and effervescent. In sort, for myself, I am a hard act to follow.”
“The doctor’s words made me understand what happened to me was a dark, evil, and shameful secret, and by association I too was dark, evil, and shameful. While it may not have been their intention, this was the message my clouded mind received. To escape the confines of the hospital, I once again disassociated myself from my emotions and numbed myself to the pain ravaging my body and mind. I acted as if nothing was wrong and went back to performing the necessary motions to get me from one day to the next. I existed but I did not live.”
“If a person comes to the door of poetry untouched by the madness of the Muses, believing that technique alone will make them a good poet, they and their sane compositions never reach perfection, but are utterly eclipsed by the performances of the inspired madman.”
Nothing like a warm cup of tea to soothe the grumpies.
“One set of causes are to be found in the invalidating home environment. As we know BPDs suffered intense invalidations of their unconscious needs during their first years of life. A BPD learns that his/her natural needs aren’t normal and welcomed, and that he/she must suppress them in order to gain approval and acceptance from significant adults. In other words, the BPD learns that he/she is not good as he/she is. Such situations create the first major identity crisis.”
Humanity has become a house of horrors. Diseases of the soul are the norm.
“In summary, we see one aspect of compassionate mind training as a way to stimulate new pathways in the brain that enable development of a new self-to-self relationship, based on a ‘care and concern’ social mentality. This mentality conceptualises, thinks and feels about relationships in very different ways to that of the social rank (dominant-subordinate) mentality. The aim is to tone down dominate-subordinate self-to-self relating, reduce shame, replace unhelpful defensive-safety behaviours and stimulate self-reassuring and self-caring/soothing relationships. This training needs to operate at both implicit and explicate levels of self-relating.”
“An intimate relationship does not banish loneliness. Only when we are comfortable with who we are can we truly function independently in a healthy way, can we truly function within a relationship. Two halves do not make a whole when it comes to a healthy relationship: it takes two wholes.”